#derealisation disorder

[vixensofdeath]

I wish my shower could wash away all the pain and memories and all of my problems. I feel the water and it feels nicer than most moments in my life and it feels welcoming. for an hour I can sit and think of everything or nothing and just feel. I can just feel, without feeling bad or happy even, I can just experience feeling without the emotions. It feels like the touch I yearn for, it feels like home, it feels like peace.

[unidentity-dpdr]

Hello!

This is intended to be a half-informational, half-personal blog on the topic of depersonalization-derealization disorder, commonly abbreviated as DPDR.

A longer explanation of DPDR can be found here, but in short: DPDR is a dissociative disorder wherein one experiences chronic depersonalization and/or derealization not caused by another disorder to a point which causes distress and/or impairs functioning. Depersonalization and derealization are two specific types of dissociation: depersonalization is a disconnect from one's self or personhood, and derealization is a disconnect from one's surroundings.

Neither are exclusive to DPDR as a disorder, and either can occur as a symptom of other disorders, other dissociative disorders especially. The abbreviation DPDR may also be used to more broadly mean "depersonalization/derealization". On this blog, I will be using "DPDR" to refer to the disorder, as that is how I experience these symptoms.

An unidentity is a term I have coined for a specific type of depersonalization I've experienced and have been told others experience as well, but have found no specific documentation of. I have chosen to coin a specific term for ease of communication and greater awareness regarding this specific symptom. Other people with DPDR who experience this are welcome but not required to use this term. A longer explanation of unidentity is can be found here.

[slaughterlmao]

does anyone else with dpdr (did???) have severe reading and listening problems like when youre trying to understand and remember new information your mind just goes white noise mode and eyes wont focus

[beautifuldarkmind]

Derealisation is so weird because why do I feel like nothing is real and I dont exist just because I've got a bit anxious lol

[maddihattersworld]

TRIGGER WARNING: DEREALITY AND DELUSIONS

So it’s coming around to people using the,, “i’m in your sink” or “i’m in your walls” thing as a joke again. If you do that on any of my posts or reblogs it will be an instant block as i suffer from delusions (part of my diagnosis with psychotic tendencies) and just having someone comment that earlier today spurred on an episode for me.

in addition,, it’s not cool or trendy to pretend to have any disorder with relations to delusions. (it’s not remotely okay to pretend to have a disorder at all.) People pretending to have delusions are the reason why it’s become such a big joke. such as people thinking it’s a trend to have DID make it harder for the people who do actually suffer.

TLDR; Don’t pretend to have any form of a disorder,, and don’t comment or post things that you know could trigger someone with a disorder

[pilipalaa]

I was writing about all the negative things about myself, "I compare myself to other people", "I'm lazy" and this and that. I stopped and wrote, "But.." hoping to find something a bit positive.

It's been an hour and I'm still here with a pen in my hand, the "but" in front of me and no words to write. It is such a horrific experience to realise you cannot see a drop of goodness in your own self while searching for it all around you.

[daybringersol]

{derealization}lens

[PT: {derealization}lens. End PT.]

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A term for people who need to see their internal experiences through the lens of derealisation to understand, process and/or stabilize them. Made with people who experience derealization in mind, but not exclusive.

Colors taken from the derealisation flag [link].

More about {thing}lens [link].

[s1n-unt0uched]

hi :”) it’s been a while

i’m really happy to say that i’m a lot better, growing and maturing and wanting to heal. it’s been a really rough journey but i’m hoping i’m going towards a place where i can finally heal

i’ll still be here, cataloguing my healing from time to time and also venting on days it gets worse, but i think i’m overall just in a place of change right now

it was my birthday a week ago! growing up & time really does help, it’s so stupid but god, it’s so true. i don’t need extensions for my work anymore, im finding happiness in things again and i’m doing better than i used to

i know bad days are still going to come, and dips are natural but i’m happy that i’m not in a place where i feel like i’m trapped and there’s no way out.

i’m always going to be here if you need to talk, send me a dm or an ask and i’ll always reply. i want you guys to know it does get better. slowly, i am healing. and i’m so excited for the process.

i love you guys. please don’t give up. i’m so happy i didn’t.

[niholudy]

Was ist derealization?

Einkaufen gehen, die nötigen Lebensmittel kaufen, den Müll raus bringen und Putzen. Ich weiß noch das ich um 09:00 Uhr aufgestanden bin jedoch weiß ich nicht wieso es jetzt plötzlich 17:00 Uhr ist. Ich sehe das die Wohnung geputzt ist und mein Kühlschrank voll aber wie genau das passiert ist daran erinnere ich mich nicht. Es ist wie als hätte ich den Autopiloten eingeschaltet. Alles habe ich von alleine gemacht ohne Geistig wirklich anwesend zu sein. Ich habe in dieser Zeit nicht einmal realisiert das ich ich bin. Die grundsätzliche Tatsache Einkaufen gewesen zu ein weiß ich noch doch der Rest? Keine Gedanken, keine aktive Präsenz. Nur die Frage ob das was ich tue Realität ist. Ob ich Träume. Es fühlte sich an wie ein Traum. So erlebe ich es. Manchmal ein paar Minuten, manchmal lebe ich so Tage lang.

Du bist nicht alleine ♡

[vixensofdeath]

it’s funny how a room you’ve known for years can start seeming unfamiliar. this room doesn’t feel real, this house doesn’t feel real, nothing feels real. I see myself and I wonder is that actually me? I have so many questions about life- everything about it. it’s all so odd to think about and it hurts my head to think about the existence of me and the people around me.

[goodbye-randoms]

TW: suicidal thoughts, disorders.

storytime of today,

So me & my friend both have a disorder called depersonalization/derealization disorder. Today we hung out & everything was going fine. We went to the store & when we came back she had a depersonalization attack. I never dealt with someone ELSE having one before so i got scared. I was dealing with it the best I could, asking questions, carring her cos she couldn't walk & was scared to, helping her name her feelings, etc. She was scared to do anything. She was also scared of me & felt better w/ me? I understood how she felt but din't know how to deal with someone else having it. I knew she couldn't walk home so i called her dad. He came a few minutes ago from work. But in the mean time she said she hates herself, she's ugly, everyone hates her, her mom doesn't love her she wants to kill herself, etc. Then her dad came, I told her to call me if anything & to be safe. I'm rlly worried & praying 4 her.

WHAT ARE THE DISORDERS?:

[sunflock]

During a movie that fucked me up in all mental levels and will leave me with nightmares and trauma for years, my brain decided to register back to life properly after a month of dissociation. What the fuck bud

[bonesfeelingthicker]

[chronicallyillandcoping]

After a 6 month wait i have finally been able to see someone and get approved to go back on quetiapine. The appointment took 2 hours, some diagnoses have been changed and i need to see the doctor at least once a month for a year to so some more work around my mental health but it feels so good to finally make some progress in this area.

[tarraxahum]

Depersonalized: an old PoF bonus comic

the comic itself is linked in my pinned

[a-random-black-and-white-cat]

My self portrait of my personal experiences disassociating